My husband and I are both US Army veterans and full time entrepreneurs, growing our business in financial education and resources. We are not shy or timid when it comes to sharing our story of how faithful God is, specifically when we suffered a miscarriage back in October 2019. Having two healthy, full term pregnancies prior to losing our son, we were devastated learning that he no longer had a heartbeat. God moved in our lives and allowed us to grow closer together through such a dark time. We had no idea He was about to blow our minds yet again. January 2020, we were expecting again! Within minutes, our emotions went from thankful to overjoyed to confused to denial to fear!
Fear of moving too quickly, fear of the worst case scenario, fear of sharing with others, etc. We’re thinking about what if this... what if that... We had let what happened in the past literally take away from the moment God had blessed we with in the present! Wow! What is going on here? We had to pray and reflect on where He’d brought us from. We walk by faith and not by sight. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. Don’t be concerned with the false fears that attempt to distract and cloud your mind. PLOT TWIST: the victory has already been won! And that is what we shifted our focus to before having even gotten our first ultrasound. We had a moment where God reminded us that He takes what the enemy meant for evil and turns it for good! A greater purpose will be birthed through pain. So, in our hearts we knew this little baby was a real thing, heaven sent, and that God will get all glory from her life!
Sarai has been such a blessing to our family, and although not a day goes by where our son isn’t on our minds, we’re thankful for our reminder that Delay is NOT Denial and that His promises are YES and AMEN!